heyhoheyho. i cant move my fingers properlyy.

SO THIS IS HOW IT ALL STARTED; i was happily doing my art and trying so hard to open the damn bloody superglue bottle tube thing, and the whole thing spurlted out, and now my whole hand is filled with this layer of white white residue. and its so dry and hard, making my oh-so-tender skin so rough! I AM SUCHA BIMBO! but really this sucks. BIG TIME. ahh. ):

i havent been posting much huh. i guess i am plain lazy. not just about blogging. ahh, practically everything. i went for sgidol a few days ago! it was pretty fun. first i got the tix from meish, and then aaron. haha. GAY! (: nahh, i'm joking.

anyway. i have tonnes of work waiting to be done. this is said in almost ALL my posts. i am so utterly hopeless. i wanna go for sgidol next week! i dont know if mum will allow.

OOH MUM PLEASE! TAKE IT AS A BIRTHDAY GIFT? ITS THE BRITISH THINGY THING THING! I WANNA GO! RAHH. MY JOAKIM WILL MISS ME OKAY! OR RATHER I'LL MISS HIM! DONCHA THINK HE'S SO EFFING ADORABLE! AHH. I AM HEAD OVER HEELS! AND AND AND. AARON MIGHT BE ABLE TO GET MOSH PIT TICKETS! AHH! I HAVE TO GO! JOAKIM DONT WORRY. I'LL BE THERE!

that was freakishly crazy! but i really wanna go! then what if meishi cant go? then i wouldnt wanna go alone! ahh. whatever. i have to change my blogskin and link people. i feel so bad la! some have asked me so manytimes and for so long alr! ahh.

rachael's got crush! i'm happpy for you babe! :D

ive been recieving funny smses. hoho. so hilarious. but so freaking scaryy.

i am so self obsessed!

sorry for not blogging for such a long time. ive been kinda busy with school and such. so much so that, i havent been really going for after school lunches. its like geog english science and all. its practically driving me nuts. or should i say i am already nuts. but some silly things kinda perked me up to concentrate on my work, tho sometimes i feel so darn distracted. ahh. and for english i am in charge of what? MISS UNIVERSE. say hello to death marie. rahh.

but overall i'm happy. with sg idol tmr and stuff. its enough to get me going. AND, i have a feeling we're gonna screw tmr's newsreport thing. YEAH. ooh my. and we arent even done with the script. ahh, call this stress mann. and freaking adding to it, my cramps are killing me. WHAT WOMEN GO THROUGH MANN. FEEL MY PAIN! exams are round the corner! ):

i am kinda going crazy alr. but i dont really have the time for that. so im gna head back to MISS UNIVERSE. say hello to irritating projects and study timetables.

heyhey. overdue picture taken at macs. there are loads of assignments waiting to be done. 6 PROJECTS, AND ESSAY WRITING FOR LIT. kill me. then i had a compo exam today and i was completely unaware. fine, not unaware, but i forgot. okayokay. ahh. i gotta go buck up now.

A unforgivable mistake;
An unsavable friendship；

A foolish word,
a friendship wrecked.
A contradiction,
a confusion.

I was once the protector;
Now i am the dictator.
I wish i could take back the silly words,
but all i did was act like a bitch.
Now i finally realise;
it wasn't a facade.
But a nightamare come true.

I sit and stare,
I sit and think.
it was not true,
I try to believe.
But no, however i try,
it would just never fly.
It was no dream, it was the truth;
the upsetting cruel truth.

The difficult position i am being put through,
the helplessness inside,
flowing throughout the weak mind.
The guilt, the disability to erase.
Just like i'm in a race,
when you try but never being able to get that place.
Denial, like they say,
was not chosen, if i could i would,
just run right away.


You played your best;
but i did not,
all i did was stop and get in your way;
though this way you seemed even further away.
I didn't expect of it,
it was like being bit,
a bit by another bit,
the torture, on this creature.

If it would end,
or if i could just bleed,
bleed; and end all this.
making it seem, it was just a dream.

facade, oh what a facade.
yeahh, if only.

hello! (:

i think our school is damn HAPPENING. i feel like a liann. ): like "whoa! damn happening seh!" YEAHH. RIIIIGHT.

and yknow whyy? cos carricechong came today. she deejayed for us! live! (: i swear she's damn gorgeous. and hot too! ahh. then she was walking around the canteen talking to us. (:
i went to yuanmays filming today! (: it was fun, but kinda boring, but hot. ahh. whatever. i am not myself today.

hm.

photo whoring today! check this out.



coolness huh! (: that was with jaime. then i photowhored with meish too! (:

meishi's pretty! (:


i love paultwohill! (: yeahh, riiiight.

my phone's cam is not badd. (: support sonyerricson; k750i.

while we were at macs, meishi bought a drink! (:

i am fascinated! have you seen coke like this is macdonalds?!?! no! ((:

meanwhile, its one more month to my birthday! (: hear me say yay! (:

hellohello.

thursdays, three double periods. what da you expect? i am terribly tired, but ive yet to complete lotsa hmk. we wenta j8 today! disappointed kim and jenn, no eye candies for them to see. hoho. then jenn sam and i wenta the macs at the interchange to have ice cream! i swear thats like the hangout for the students in bishan. its like flooded with kuochuan, amk sec, and blah. i still cant believe my second choice for psle was kuochuan, i was trying to imagine myself in the white blouse and blue skirt. everything would be different mann. aww. ):

i love my friends, and since love is a two way thing;
my friends love me. (:

so anyways, i am really tired, for some weird reason. headaches, stomach cramps. godd. kill me.
conferenced with ARRON THE DRUMMER, HE HAS A HIGHH VOICE. LOL.

There's a piece of you that's here with me ;

school as so friggin fun today! esp the clases after recess.

so, i was eating at the canteen then kim and lynette ran to my table laughing.
L& K: "pad pad i need pad!"
M: "omfg, i am eating la, stop playing."
L& K: "no no no, nat!!! nat!!!"
M:"nat what?!?!"
L& K: "she got her mens! hurry hurry!"
M:"what you want!?"
L& K: "pad pad pad!"
M:"oh yeahh!"
*SCURRIES TO BAG TO FIND A PAD.*
*ALL OF US START GETTING HYSTERICAL.*
and then suddenly kim lynnette and nat come backk.

then we start laughing and guess what mann. nat showed lynette and kim her undies! ohmygodd. you can just die. and then she was like "is this menstration?" oh gosh. so the next period was english. we went to the ava room. then as kim was walking in she was like "everyone! nat got her thingg! first time!" in front of mrs roch, gosh. i wonder how humiliated nat was. tskk. so the whole class were laughing and then i told nat " youre a woman mann" HAHA.

then the next peroid. kim told miss chua. and then the whole class started laughing. then nat was like " i dunno.. thats why i ask her la." so hilarious. and because ms chua knows daneilla, nat's sis, nat was like " my sis have the whole family know one! so smelly!" OMFG. thats the worst thing your sister can say abt you. her reputation is tarnished. wahhahaha.

you gotta love life in ij.

art! is so troublesome! ):

since i am so bored, i have decided to post some old old old pictures. enjoy. (:









photoshopping skills not bad huh?

school was great, as per usual, tuesdays are best. there's hilarious drama classes and exciting cme. (: i was falling asleep during english today. mrs roch was looking at me. soon my name is going to be in that yellow file. ): i have tonns of art homework to do. but i dont really care la. tralala. i gon' be a good girl and finish my hmk today.

i cheated during tingxie. OOPSSSY.

since my birthday is soon to come, i have came up with a wishlist! which yall probably cannot fufill. (:

i want...

1. lindsaylohan's hot bod! (:
2. fat fat hamsters. NOTE, FAT ONES.
3. to be able to not eat for one week! (:
4. to be utt's girlfriend! HAHA.
5. to have this season's clothes from zara, SUN DRESS SUN DRESS!
6. to be able to walk on my head.
7. unlimited supply of money!
8. chocolate, like LOTSA LOTSA DARK DARK CHOCOLATE. andandand, also milk chocolate. ooh!!!
9. piano lessons
10. latin dance classes.
11. a more flexible body.
12. less frizzy hair.
13. jet black hair! ooh. i am emoooooo. emoooooo, not emo. (:
14. to star in a moviee.
15. to go to hollywood. in a private hellicopter!
16. thus, i'd need a hellicopter.
17. thus, i hafta learn to drive/fly a hellicopter.
18. to have everything i want! (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

marie's a fat ass greedy pig.

Did you ever feel like you wanna be
someone else for just one day
did u ever feel like you wanna see
through another pair of eyes
Did u ever think I might wanna be
with anyone else for just one day
Did u ever really think of me
when I walked away

The look the dunks and the bottle of Jack
the smokes the slouch and my eyes back
you think you know what you think you'll find
you think you'll figure me out tonight
but you'll never know what I won't share
coz I don't care, no I don't care
you think you'll figure me out tonight
but I don't care

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way
coz every man that I know makes me feel like I'm to blame
when it's over, me and my selfish ways
go back to start again
go back to start again

Did u ever feel like you should have said
something smarter at the time
Did u ever feel like you should have kept
it all to yourself
Did u ever think it might be your fault
I never promised anymore
Did u ever think it might not be me
now it was always me

The look the dunks and the bottle of Jack
the smokes the slouch and my eyes back
you think you know what you think you'll find
you think you'll figure me out tonight
but you'll never know what I won't share
coz I don't care, no I don't care
you think you'll figure me out tonight
but I don't care

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way
coz every man that I know makes me feel like I'm to blame
when it's over, me and my selfish ways
go back to start again
And I wonder, if I'm just built this way
coz every man that I know makes me feel like I'm to blame
when it's over, me and my selfish ways
go back to start again
go back to start again

The look the dunks and the bottle of Jack
the smokes the slouch and my eyes back
you think you know what you think you'll find
you think you'll figure me out tonight
but you'll never know what I won't share
coz I don't care, no I don't care
you think you'll figure me out tonight
but I don't care

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way
coz every man that I know makes me feel like I'm to blame
when it's over, me and my selfish ways
go back to start again

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way
coz every man that I know makes me feel like I'm to blame
when it's over, me and my selfish ways
go back to start again
go back to start again
go back to start again

gosh! meigan watch is so entertaining! its meishi's father's blog about newborn meigan. she's so cute! so.. erm, pink. yeahh. marilyn manson's tainted love. i am addicted to it. so school's started for three weeks alr, although its doesnt seem like it due to all the hanging out and the holidays and celebrations. i have let say got into the mood of doing my work alr, cos of all the piles the teacher's been giving us.

yeahh, and and and. i am into this piano thing now. i know yall must be saying i'd quit halfway. sometimes i doubt myself on that one too, but yeahh, i am quite determined this time. and also latin dance. thats one's been my interest since forever. how? its not my fault ive got no money right.

so ultimate wishlist now is,
piano and latin dance classes.
tuition for geog, science and math.
cable tv!
and and and, for italy to win worldcup though i think france will win. whateverr.

who's watching the match tonight? (:

Once I ran to you
Now I run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love

so much hmk, so lil' time. starting to get back to the school mood, of course. with all the hmk lined up. there's art, hist, lit, maths yeahh. feel my pain mann. so i am doing lit now, are children racist by nature? well, i think so yknow, thanks to the irresponsible adults who do not know howta sent a goood example for they're kids nowadays. tskk.

rahh, i am so sickk of work. save me! and and and, i didnt do one test for elearning. god bless everyone so we wont have birdflu. praise the lord! (:

i know you want me so bad. (: HAHA! ((:

FUN lunch and shopping today! we forgot abt elearning. yeaps. seoul garden! *screams* yeahh, good food and fats too. sighh.


look at the good food! ((:

so we went shopping at bugis street, godd. its bloody cheap la. its sad to shop with so lil money. i want a rich husband to marry! ahh! marie's gone madd. i am now having a video conference with my twinnie twinnie twin twin! ((:


haha, unglamness! but its aiight.

so anyway, sam and rachael had to go first. so they left. and then we didnt get to take a photo together again. GODD. haiyahh. so we took neos! pity they're with jewel or i'd upload them here! (: then we wenta the baby arcade! yknow the one your mum takes you to everytime she shops at the parco? ((:

kids forever we'll be. (:

then we headed to coffee bean! (: yay. had ice mocha again. all time fav. ((: heart to heart talks with the three, godd, pouring it all out was good. started getting emotional and all, heavy hearts and stuff. its like that with girls. ahh. i guess we were think too far. (:

i love yall, jewel, samp, ym, rachael and of course my one and only twinnie twinne twin twin. (:

whats a girl without friends? really.

these quizzez are so entertaining! (:

You wish to achieve your goal at speed. While you are seen dreamy, you also work hard. Try not to run away from problems and you will surely be successful.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

oohmy! (:


You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

haha, its not that true okay! (:


Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.


Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test79.aspx

i am kind?!!?


You value your friendships: 70%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority
is your friends.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test78.aspx

i am a nuisance! ):
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test78.aspx

I CONCLUDE E-LEARNING SUCKS. BIGGGIE.

it's so boring and they arent even supose to allow us to use the computer for so long. we're so gonna go blind. i'd rather be in school now yknow. completed most of the stuff online alr, except for those that you hafta print out and do as a worksheet. then i have the other hmk to do, art and all that shit. KILLMENOW. so its fun lunch and shopping to look forward to tmr. yay. (:

i am going to my sister's psc night to support revoltage, i think we're baking cookies. (:
go revoltage.

HELLO WORLD.

ahh, fun lunch today. after a longg time. NOSTALGIA MANN. the embarassmen of making oh-so-much noise in macs is all worth-while. hah, no school tmr, as well as friday. as part of e-learning. AND GUESS WHAT? its portugal against france today. YEAHH. since my dear brazil's gone, my hopes are on portugal. yupps. (: my horoscope says i should move on with my love life today.*rachael goes "ooooohh!!!* hah, she seriously gets too excited sometimes. LOL. (:

yknow how much i miss you so.

RAHHH.

okayokay, so today was well, fine. YEA. I LOVE THE WORD FINE MANN. all very fine today. drama was, well a bit scary. mr armstrong got us to hmm, lie down and think that we're somewhere where well, we can fall asleep. so everyone thought of like the jungle, and mostly the bedroom. OKAY FINE LA. ohmygodd. so embarassing, yea. I THOUGHT OF HEAVEN. i mean, you can fall asleep in heaven right? its when people are so tired of life, you go to heaven. yeap.

then we had cme and stuff. HAH, sex and sexuality. today was abt relationships. yea, i seriously think this is like no age for relationships. and i am starting to not be so scared of mrs tan. yeapp. ohmy. and she didnt scold me for my skirt today! (: yay. i gonna get it altered. too short too short. hah. then she was like "erm, think of a scenario when your friend has a boyfriend and you a supposed to advise her to study instead of getting too involved." ive been through it, hah. so one of our peeps were like "i would advise her to break up with him and all"

mrs tan: " what if she says that he's very handsome and he treats her really well and she doesnt think it would affect her studies? "
me * screams* :" cant you have a handsome friend?! that also treats you well?"
*whole class stares. *

i mean seriously, people are totally dumb when they're in love. i reallyyy, dont know why i screamed so loudly. but yeahh. i mean why not a handsome FRIEND. to me, friends are wayy better than boyfriends. okay maybe yall will be saying that i am only saying this now cos i havent been in love but still, when you think abt it, its actually quite true. then mrs tan was like "i dont mind yall having guy friends then at least yall can have a choice." which is obviously better than being tied down to one, and i am totally not trying to say you can have more than one boyfriend, twotiming, godd. thats bad. and then she was saying girls are naturally more emotional than men, and men are more visual. thats so bad mann. girls normally do things with their heart. only see things the way they are. women are more easily softened while men, do things.. well, just do things. NO, I AM NO SEXIST. (:

Daily overview.
July 04, 2006
You rarely need your hand held, so you don't quite understand why someone else might require it. However, the stars indicate that it's a good time to exercise your sense of compassion and your listening skills.

Teens horoscopes.
You're cuter than a roly-poly puppy with floppy ears today, and people will hug you and try to play games all day. Release your inner kid and play right back, because all the laughter will do you good.

OHMYGODD. marie! why do believe in this! arghh. shittme.

ohmygodd, this is seriously annoying me. i was so happy when i saw the bubblewrap, and then some people just had to destroy it all. annoyants.

ohmygodd, just change your whole firggin attitude and everything will be SO FINE. about the seoul garden shit, have you forgotten we owe sam one? we know that youre vegtarian, but we owe sam her bday treat rmb? and puhhleeaseeee--- there's seriously more to eggs and dessert. vegtables? vegtarians eat vegtables if you rmb correctly. ohmygoddd. what happened to the things you used to say when you were an angel? " no la its okay, its okay." just changed within a day huh? and you say your mum bought you lunch, like jenn said, we would wait okay, and having known us for so long you should have at least knew that part. we are so not ganging up against you. okay fine, you dont like meishi, but why cant you just tag along? is it that difficult? ohmygodd. then you said you knew jenn posted the notice, if you didnt like the whole idea of seoul garden then you could have told us, if you did we would planned everything all well and none of this would have happened. agree? you have got to.

then abt your attitude, like jenn said, you know full well yourself its a problem. then why are you asking us to accept your problem? FYI? as your friends we should be correcting it, not accepting it. and if you dare tell us we should accept your problems then why not you try accepting our friends? its not like you dont have other friends right? RIGHT. then you say all the shit abt not accepting your attitude and not being or friends. now youre severing ties?!?!?

ohmyygodd. i rather just get a asthma attack and faint on the floorr. this is so killing me, and i am sure its not only me. but all of us. whats up with these kinda things happening one after another? i seriously had enough already. its not the first time mann.

JUST KILL ME.

ooh! bubble wrap! feel my joy! (:

Acceptance is not the same thing as resignation. You won't lose if you give in now.

ilovehoroscopes. i believe in them. (: yay.

i just had chicken rice. yums. its the famous chicken rice from dunno where. hurrhurrhurr. i have hmk work i havent done. but what am i doing?! blogging. DIE MARIE, DIE. wahaha. i have lit, art and science to do, plus filing. OHMYGODD. i could just diediedie.

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I BOTHER EXPALINING MYSELF. its like it doesnt matter anymore. at least not to me. godd, i sound depressed. i am so not.

i guess i am kinda happy today. ahh, whatever.

okay. ij primary carnival. i seriously had no idea why i was so looking forward to going, the worst thing is, i bought tickets and didnt do anything! ahh. #$#@!!

okay fine, i spent like one dollar on greentea, yknow the new flavour the one with mangosteen and lime. OMG. i drank it and i felt like i was a bloody pregnant woman. like when you wanna puke, need to puke, hafta puke, but just cant puke. FEEL MY PAIN. so we just walked around in pain and sweat. disgusting, i know. so in the end we could take it and left, for pizza hut! woots. WOAH. 50$ on food. its like chewing paper notes. but it was all worth while. gossiping over good food. we know we're gossip queens. ): i love rachael and jennifer, they make me happy. headed to far east.

i neeed accessories!

kim has bloody pretty nice bangles and beads! and, i swear she looks damn good not in her school uniform! like so hot! ahhahah, i am not lesbian. reallyyy.
why doesnt emily like me?
i am sooooooo depressed.

far east! ohh boyy. they're damn good and eating paper notes. everything is damn ex. esp when you look at it and have no money to buy it. you just wanna die. i wanted to die! ahah. no, i am joking. so anyway. like jenn said, "oh. and me rachael and marie can communicate through the eyes.hahah! dam cool right.we talk with eyes. the telepathy rocks.and its dam useful.right right right?" yupps we can. we should join like some guiness book of records or smth. HAHA. i am dreaming. (:
i need to take mummy there. cos i have no money! ):

rach had to leave early, so me and jenn decided to go to starbucks, ended up having a heart to heart talk, from boys to girls, friendship to relationships. iloveyoujenn. so jenn hadta go home, so while waiting at the taxi stand, some irritating man and another annoying head woman, had to just irritate us when they thought that we delibretly let the cab drive past, i mean its a taxi stand?! the taxi driver should noe that we're wiating for the cab right. and he called us xiao mei, do we look that young!? OMG. ahh.

so anyway, you hafta stop being so self centered and annoying. and also, try to change the way you treat your friends. can't you be nicer to them?! ohmygod.

and YOU. can you please try to accept other people. its like, you call me unsocialised, so now who's the one ah? tskk. then you said no one told you we were going for lunch. but jenn posted it on her blog. GREAT EXCUSE. its not our fault that fun is drifting apart like jenn said. why cant we accept other people together, all six of us. so now tell me, whats your definition of being socialised? afterall, its the six of us that stick together like always, we all know that. this is when i friendship is put to the test, and you dont seem like youre gonna pass it. if youre gonna be angry with us, SO BE IT. IVE GOT NOTHING TO SAY. REALLYY.